Princess Katrine.

ESCAPE.

2010-10-26T22:37:00.003+08:00

thank God for blogger. I need an escape. I need a place to rant, to say things, without the things I say being known by people who shouldn't hear or read what I have to say.

I am seriously pissed. It is irritating. I am irritated by her. By her friends. By her presence. By her constant texts and comments. Get a life girl. Stop hovering around. You irritate me. You irritate me because you're perky. You hover too much. You ask things with simple answers that even an elementary student can answer, so really, what's the point of you asking? you kept on texting while I'm around. I know it's what we call coincidence but really, just stop.

People think its funny. They say, don't worry about her, its just that she's too young. But hear what I've got to say. YOU are not young anymore. You are a grown woman who knows what is right and what is wrong, what will hurt people and what will not. You're a girlfriend , just like me. So you know when to act as a girl friend and when to act just AS a friend. so stop. Please. JUST STOP.

escapre

2010-10-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

from the underworld.

2008-05-17T11:01:00.002+08:00

after many centuries of not posting, i decided to post again in this blog. yey for me! :) this is actually a pretty decent and nice site so why not update it more often, right? :)

anyway, how have i been? well, im having my summer classes again (just beacuse i dont want to be stuck in the province for the whole summer), which by the way is already finshed. i got a pretty good grade in my sole polsci summer subject and i got myself a bookmark (only those who have taken pilapil and torres would understand)!

and the best thing is, tomorrow, would be our first birthday! yey yey! :) it's paper for us. :)

wee!

mahal na pusa.

2007-07-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

ako'y isang pusa. isang mabait na pusa. at dapat akong mahalin at alagaan. masunurin ako at maunawain. ngunit pusa lamang ako. may damdamin rin. hindi ako bato. hindi ako si darna.

ha? ang labo noh.

i know.

2007-07-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

ikaw ha. binibisita mo pala tong site ko. haha. huli ka. ;) panget ka talaga.

dying.

2007-06-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

my blog is really dying. what's happening to the world? i think i really and desperately need to relive this by uploading and updating this more. and people should really start visiting this more and more. haha. people, visit my blog!

masaya ka ba?

2007-06-09T19:14:00.000+08:00

natatawa na talaga ko sa mga tao. wala na lang silang ibang tanong sakin kundi, "masaya ka ba?"
everytime na nalalaman nila na meron ng iba, eto ang unang tanong na lagi nilang sinasabi. bakit kaya? don't i look happy? haha.

a friend of mine who have not really been in touch lately suddenly texted me yesterday. he saw me with kiko. he asked if he's my new someone. and i said yes. then he asked, "masaya ka ba?"
pangilan na siya sa mga taong nagtanong sakin nito. and ive answered the same question with the same answer for many times already. and i guess i have to repeat it again.

yes. masaya ako. hindi lang masaya. masayang masaya. right now, i just want to enjoy the moment and hope that it will last. honestly, i really want this to be the last. seriously.

kaya para sa lahat ng gusto pang magtanong, sige lang. ill be happy to answer all your questions. and ill be very happy to introduce him to you guys. :)

stay happy.

of holidays and love.

2007-06-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

i used to love the holidays. it gives me a time off on the usual this and that, of the routines I go through everyday, which can get a pretty boring. I used to can't wait for holidays to come and just shout, "yey! walang pasok." but i guess things do change.now, i feel like hating holidays.

i dont know why i feel this way but i guess it must be the "love bug". I don't want school to be over. I don't want holidays because holidays mean that there would be no classes thus we wont see each other. as pathetic as it may sound but i really dont want NOT to see him or be with him. Pardon me, but im just drowning with love. haha.

I just hope i'll return back to normal. to the usual me who can take long days, weeks, or months of being separated with the one i love of care about. why? because the one writing this blog entry is definitely not me. im way better than this girl. haha. i survived the whole summer. why can't i survive a long weekend right? again, im just being overly romantic, head over heels, and crazy in love. weird right?

this must be the effect of being with him three days in a row. with nothing to do or nothing to think about. geesh.

once again, i repeat. this is not me. im in love but not crazy. oh well, yes. maybe. just a little bit.
so what is really my point?

holidays and love just dont match. not really a perfect fit. unless you use the time to go out and have fun and be together and...

WHY DID NOT I THINK OF THAT IN THE BEGINNING?!

now, i must really be a crap.

from the underworld.

2007-06-07T17:56:00.000+08:00

hello again blogger.

it's nice to be back. ;)

feeling.

2007-05-23T14:17:00.000+08:00

bakit may feeling ako na something is wrong? hindi ko alam kung ano. hindi ko maiexplain. parang may mangyayaring mali. or nangyari. basta. hindi maganda. kinakabahan ako. at ayokong isipin na pwede etong humantong sa kung ano man.

hindi ko alam kung nafefeel ko lang ba to kasi hindi naman siya madalas na ganito towards me. bakit kaya? ano kayang problema? is it me? hay.

i just hate this kind of feeling. masakit sa ulo. whatever it is, sabihin mo na nga lang. ng matapos na. walang ganito.

when you're happy and you know it.

2007-05-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

sabi nila,

when you're happy and you know it,
you clap your hands.

forever na ata kong magcaclap ng hands. *clap clap clap*

untitled.

2007-05-21T20:39:00.000+08:00

no need for words.

yes.

i am happy. sobra. para kong nasa cloud nine. shet. ilang araw na pero hanggang nagyon, iba pa rin effect sakin. long lasting. kakaiba ka talaga. anlakas. ;)

para sayo, maraming salamat for making me this happy. you are the reason why it never fails that there is always a smile on my face. you don't know how thankful i am for you. yes, you do make me feel that i am being loved and being taken care of. and i love you for that. along with many other reasons on why you and i are together.

i know there's no forever for us because we both still don't believe in forever but i do wish there will come a time that we'll both realize that "forever" still exists and that we both want that forever to happen to us. but right now, it's "for a long time".

yes. i would want to keep and be with you for a long time. i would want to share many things with you, explore life with you and continue to live my life happily with YOU. there may be no assurance for all of these but i would want to believe that these would all happen. well, probably not now, but as i have said, we have our lives together to make it all possible.

we may have problems, arguments, petty and irrational reasonings but i do hope we'll both help each other and continue to understand each other's flaws , strengths and weaknesses. i'm trying my very best to be honest to you at all times and i do wish you'll do the same. anf i have no doubt about that.

always remember that, i love you and i will continue to do so.

panget ka. i love you. :)

carbonara.

2007-05-21T20:23:00.000+08:00

the carbonara really made wonders.

and i love it for that.

i love you baby. :)

pamamaalam.

2007-05-21T19:40:00.000+08:00

naisip ko lang. napakatagal na rin pala ng blog ko. madami dami na ring istorya. madami dami na ring kwento. madami dami na ring drama.

kung tututusin, kung gusto mo nga namang mabasa ang kwetong pagibig ko- ang transition from one relationship to another, ang heartbreaks, ang mga lalaking nagdaan- lahat to, nasa blog.

nakakatuwang isipin na ang tagal na rin pala mula nung una kong nagsulat, unang nagkwento, unang naglabas ng sama ng loob, kasiyahan at kung ano pang emosyon. at ngayon na binabalikan ko na ang lahat ng ito, ang sarap sa pakiramdam na malaman na ang dami ko na rin palang ipinagbago. totoo nga. tumatakbo nga ang mundo.

hindi ko to sinusulat dahil balak ko ng iwanan ang mga pahinang ito. hindi ko rin yata kaya. ang mga pahinang ito ang nagsilbing labasan ng mga iniisip, dinaramdam at halos lahat lahat sa akin, at hindi magiging ganoon kadali na iwanan ang bagay na sadyang naging parte na ng aking buhay. marahil ay sinusulat ko ito dahil ngayo'y magsasara muli ako ng pahina ng libro ng aking buhay. hindi ko ito iiwan ngunit sabihin na lang natin na hindi na ko mabubuhay sa mga letrang nakasulat dito. ngayon ay muli akong magsusulat, muling mangangarap at muling kakatha ng panibagong istorya sa libro ng aking buhay.

tama. sa tuwing may nagwawakas ay may bagong nagsisimula. at eto, eto na ang simula para sa akin. simula para sa amin.

from vien.

2007-05-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

ARE YOU:
1. A cuddler?-- definitely yes.
2. A morning person?-- yes. but at times, id rather be a night person. mas madaming nagagawa sa gabi. ;)
3. A perfectionist?-- sometimes. depende sa situation.
4. An only child?-- unfortunately, no.
5. Catholic?-- yoh, yes!
6. In your pajamas?-- nah. shorts, tshirt.
7. Currently suffering from a broken heart?-- NO.
8. Okay styling other people's hair?-- yes.
9. Left handed?-- got that right!
10. Addicted to MySpace?-- hindi eh, friendster. pero di addict.
11. Shy around the opposite gender?-- may mga pagkakataon...
12. Loud?-- oo. sobra kamo.
2. Bite your nails?-- minsan. ;)
13. Get paranoid at times?-- sobra! nerbyosa!
14. Currently regret something that you have said/done?-- wala naman.
15. Curse frequently when you get mad?-- yes. and its something im trying to change.
16. Enjoy country music?-- nope.
17. Enjoy jazz music?-- a bit.
18. Enjoy smoothies?-- yup!
9. Enjoy talking on the phone?-- super!
20. Have a lot to learn?-- of course :)
21. Have a pet?-- no. pet stuff toys, yes. ;)
22. Have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" person?-- after some broken relationships, yes. pero now, i hope hindi na to wrong.
23. Have all your grandparents died?-- no.
24. Have at least one sibling?-- yes.
25. Have been told that you are smart?-- haha. yes.
26. Have had a broken bone?-- thankfully hindi pa!
27. Have caller id on your phone?-- sa cellphone of course

HAVE YOU:
28. Changed a diaper?-- yes, sa brother ko..
29. Changed a lot over the past year?-- i guess :)
30. Had friends who have never seen your natural hair colour?-- nope.
31. Had surgery?-- wala pa rin
32. Killed anyone?-- nope
33. Had a haircut in the last week?-- nope..

LAST PERSON WHO:
34. Slept in the bed beside you?-- kiko.
35. Saw you cry?-- hmm. grai?
36. Went to the movies with you?-- mickey tiu. :)
37. Went to the mall with?-- wala. magisa lang ako.
38. You went to dinner with?-- kiko.
39. You talked to on the phone?-- kiko.
40. Said "I love you" to you and meant it?-- kiko.
41. Broke your heart?-- haha. kevin ata.
42. Made you laugh?-- kiko. :)

WOULD YOU RATHER:
43. Pierce your nose or tongue?-- tongue
44. Be serious or be funny?-- funny :)
45. Drink whole or skimmed milk?-- i don't drink milk.
46. Die in a fire or drown?-- i guess drowning would be less painful...
47. Spend time with your parents or enemies?-- parents of course!

ABOUT YOU:
48. What time is it?-- 08:09
49. Nicknames?-- kat, katkat, kp :)
50. Where were you born?-- quezon city
51. When is your birthdate?-- july 20, 1988
52. What do you want?-- be a lawyer. and be happy.
53. Where do you want to live?-- here in the Philippines. :)

namimiss.

2007-05-10T17:50:00.000+08:00

meron akong taong namimiss. taong matagal tagal ko ng di nakita. taong hindi nagpaparamdam lately. hindi ko alam kung galit ba siya o may sama siya ng loob. pero feeling ko naman, ok kami. sna lang tama ang feeling ko.

para sayo to jiji.

miss na kita.

sabi ko na nga ba.

2007-05-10T17:45:00.000+08:00

wrong move kat.

sabi ko na nga ba, hindi ko na dapat sinabi. hindi na dapat ako nagsalita o nagkwento sa ibang tao ng tungkol dun. yan tuloy, lalong lumala ang sitwasyon. hindi naman kasi ganon talaga ang gusto kong sabihin o ipalabas. masama lang talaga ang loob ko. at ngayon, mukhang pati sila, masama na rin ang loob. hindi ko alam kung anong dapat gawin. pero i made a move na ulit.

sana lang di wrong move. kasi baka next thing i know, kat, checkmate na.

one and only princess.

2007-05-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

sabi niya,

im his one and only princess.

naniwala naman ako. at leche, kinilig na naman. kailan kaya ko di na kikiligin sa mga simpleng hirit niya? nakakatawa rin ano. parang high school. hehe. ;)

pero mas may pamatay na hirit pa ang loko,

panget, mahal kita.

o diba. san ka pa. panget nga tawag sayo, mahal ka naman. panalo.

hatid sundo.

2007-05-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

sorry naman. masaya lang talaga.

hinatid niya ko sa AS kung san magkikita ang mga tao para sa outing. sobrang natouch talaga ko sa ginawa niya. hindi siya umalis hanggang di kami

nakakaalis. sinamahan niya ko dun.at nakilala niya yung orgmates ko.

sobrang nagpapasalamat talaga ko na nakilala na siya at nakilala na niya orgmates ko. hindi niya lam kung gano niya ko napasaya dahil dun. importante sakin ang org, at importante rin siya. mahalaga para sakin na magustuhan nila ang isa't isa. at mukhang ganon na nga nangyari. :)

bente siyete.

2007-04-29T19:09:00.000+08:00

iba talaga ang saya pag siya.

i can't explain. sobrang namiss ko siya. sobrang di ko inaasahan na ganon yung mararamdaman ko pag nakita ko siya. nakakaoverwhelm. nakakagulat. ang sarap tuloy sa pakiramdam. lalo na kung alam mo (dahil sinabi niya) at ramdam mo (dahil yun ang pinapakita niya) na sobrang namiss ka rin niya. hanep.

kasam ko dapat siya na pupunta sa legarda para imeet ang ate ko. sobrang nakakatuwa kasi siya pa talaga yung nagoffer na samahan ako (that is kung aabot siya ng UP ng one) na pumunta sa ate ko. pakiramdam ko tuloy gusto niyang mameet si ate. sayang lang kasi di na siya umabot. anong oras na rin kasi siya nakarating ng UP. almost four so ako na lang magisa pumunta. mga five, nagmeet na kami para makuha na niya gamit ko. habang hinihintay ko na magfive, grabe, para kong batan hindi mapakali. kinakabahan na nasisiyahan. nakakatawa man pero totoo, iba yung kabog ng dibdib ko.

so ayon na nga, hinintay ko na dumaan siya sa tambayan. 5 minutes before five, nagtext na siya. papunta na daw siya AS (galing siyang CAL). tic tac. tic tac. next text, asa lobby na daw siya. at susunod, nasa may tapat na daw siya ng cr. ayun. tumayo na ko at lumapit. ng nakita ko siya, iba yung ngiti ko. iba rin yung feeling. dun ko narealize na sobrang miss ko pala yung tao. at mahal ko na nga talaga siya.

anong una kong ginawa? humalik sa pisngi tapos nagalit. haha! sabi ko naman kasi, agahan niya. pero late dumating so imagine me na nagagalit pero nakangiti na abot hanggang tenga. hanep diba? anong ginawa niya, niyakap ako. at sinabing namiss niya daw talaga ko. kaasar. nagmemelt heart ko.

after naming maglandian dun (hahaha!), kinuha na niya gamit ko. sabi, dadaanan niya daw ako sa bahay nina vien ng 7pm. kita na lang daw. so yun na nga, umalis na siya, umalis na rin kami to prepare.

fastforward tayo. after nila kong sinundo and all that, dumating na nga kami sa ball. at yun na. sobrang saya. kakaibang saya.

pero wala pa ring tatalo sa saya nung pagkatapos ng ball. bakit? secret. ;) basta alam ko, di na kami natulog. mas madami kasing nagagawa pag di na natutulog. hahaha! ;)

politickers gone wild.

2007-04-26T15:49:00.000+08:00

all out dancing night.

morning call.

2007-04-25T16:37:00.000+08:00

masaya man ang gabi ko, este madaling araw, may nangyari naman pagkagising, or should i say pagkatulog.

ganito kasi yun, diba nga, mga 4 to 5am magkatext pa rin kami. actually, magkausap kami till four tapos after nun, nagtext na lang. e ako, may pagkalahing antukin. pag matagal kang magreply, malamang sa malamang, matutulugan kita. so feel ko naman nakikinita niyo na nangyari.

ayaw niya kasi ng tinutulugan siya. pwede naman kasing mag good night daw muna diba. e may kasalanan pa ko sa kanyang ganon na event di ba. tapos biglang kanina, kaboom. ayun na naman.

yun na nga. natulugan ko ulit siya. nagising na ko nung nagalram yung phone ko ng 7am. pagkagising ko, tsaka ko lang narealize na katext ko pala siya bago ko biglang nakatulog. pagkatinging ko ng phone ko, 3 messages. dalawa galing sa kanya. yung isa, reply niya sa last text ko. yung isa, yun na. message. galit. din naman sobra pero ramdam mong galit.

e ako naman tong nakonsensiya. although di ko naman talaga sinasadya, nakakkonsensiya pa rin. tapos alam ko pang galit talaga diba, so sobrang bothered ako. kaya ayun. naisipan kong tawagan na lang para personally magsorry.

ring. ring. ring. ring. walang sumasagot. pagkasagot, halatang bagong gising. strike one. tulog pa pala, nagising ko. so pakiramdam ko, lalong maiinis. hiniritan ko agad. syempre, sorry to the max ako. sorry with matching paglalambing ha. sorry kasi natulugan ko siya. at sorry dahil nagising ko. sabi niya, ok lang daw. e ako naman si praning, di naniniwala. kaya sorry to the max ulit. bigla kong hiniritan. imagine ha. mahina yung boses kasi bagong gising. " i love you. " ayun. natameme ako. napangiti. kilig.

syempre, sagot naman ako. after nun, binaba na yung phone. nagtext. di na ko galit. nakakainis ka naman. hindi mo man lang ako binigyan ng chance magalit. ligo ka na at pumasok my princess."

eto mas malalang text. nahulog ata heart ko ng mabasa ko.after kung magtext ng sorry for the nth time :

"de ok lang. sarap nga ng gising ko. pano b nmn ako magagalit nun e paggising ko boses agad ng mahal ko narinig ko tas cute na cute pa. nwala agad lungkot. lam mo nmang marinig ko lang yang boses mo eh solve nako. hehe!"

wag pansinin yung last statement. bola nya lang yun. feeling ko ah. pero dun ako sa unang part kinilig. leche.

ang ganda ng morning ni kat. ;)

puyatan.

2007-04-25T15:43:00.000+08:00

as usual, puyat na naman ako. bakit? telebababd. pasaway ako eh. may pasok kinabukasan, 5am pa rin natutulog. haha.

sobrang namiss ko kasi siya. kaya ayun. nagusap ata kami for about 4 or 5 hours. at sobrang kulang pa yung time na yun ha. kundi nga lang siya na batt empty, malamang wala na talagang tulugan eh. ewan ko ba. para kaming di nauubusan ng pagkwekwentuhan. natural kasi kong madaldal. ganon din naman siya. kaya ayun. todo usap. todo tawanan. todo kulitan. todo saya.

pag mas naguumaga nga, mas lalong sumasaya. ewan ko nga ba, pero mas nagiging open kami sa mga bagay bagay pag medyo madaling araw na. wala ng preno mga bibig namin basta lampas one am. kahit yung mga nakakahiyang bagay tungkol samin, cge, kwento pa rin. kahit pa kamo yung mga pangyayari na kaming dalawa lang yung involve, nirerecall namin.

nakakatatawa nga. nagrecall kami ng dates. kung kelan yung first meeting. first date. first something. basta. yun na yun. ang nakakatawa dun e mas naaalala pa niya yung mga dates kaysa sakin. nagtinginan na nga kami ng kaniya kaniyang calendar para maalala lang eh. haha.

at di lang yun. nung mas lalong nagumaga pa, napunta na rin kami dun sa topic ng kung ano yung mga ginawa niya o ginawa ko na natouch o kinilig ako o siya. shempre, as usual, ako na naman unang nagkwento. at eto namang si kumag, feeling ko, lumalaki ang ulo sa mga sinasabi ko. haha! e kasi naman diba, sweet talaga siyang tao. well, not really sweet. more of gentleman siguro. at lahat ata ng ginawa nyang kinakiligan ko, nabanggit ko kagabi.

pero eto yung masayang part dun. nung tinanong ko na siya kung natotouch ba siya sakin. or meron na kong mga nagawa na sobrang natouch or naappreciate niya. syempre, nung una, ayaw magsalita. sabi nga niya, hindi daw siya yung mushy mushy na tao. pero sabi rin niya, kung alam ko lang daw.

e di syempre, magtaka naman ako diba. kung alam ko lang ang alin? kaya ayun. kinulit ko ng kinulit hanggang sa umamin din. eto sabi sa text: "ganto. di mo lang alam, lahat ng pinaggagagawa mo para sakin. nakatatak yun. yung simpleng tym na snspend mo pra sakin, ok na yun, malaking bagay kc skin yung nakkita kong nabibigyan ng importance. bsta taena naman kat. tama na to. hehe!" ang galing maglambing ano? haha! ewan ko ba dito. hindi talaga siya magaling sa words. man of few words nga, sabi ko.

grabe. kung alam niyo lang kung gano kalaki ngiti ko. lampas tenga ata. kinilig kasi talaga ko. nakakatawa kasi talaga yung pagkasabi niya. alam mo yun. wala lang. ang saya lang talaga. :)

pet names.

2007-04-22T19:33:00.000+08:00

ako si custard cake

siya naman si choco mallows.

para kaming mga bata ano. :) pero ang sarap ng feeling ng naglalambingan. nakakatuwa.

tindera for the day.

2007-04-22T18:42:00.000+08:00

grabe ang rummage sale namin. nakakapagod. nakakadisappoint pero nevertheless, masaya, enjoy at nakakatuwa ang mga tao.

ok naman yung kinita. 100 thousand is not bad. wala rin namang kaming naging puhunan dun eh. well, that is kung hindi isasama yung panahon namin, katawan namin at pagod namin. haha! mas ok sana kung mas madaming politickers ang nakapunta. oh well. kat, let go.

nakakatawa sina manong at manang na bumibili. sobra kung makatawad. as in to the nth level. yung iba pa nga, magkukwento muna bago bumili. super napapasaya tuloy nila kami. merong isang ate dun. after bumili sinabi ba naman sakin, "iha, yang pants mo ba, di mo ba ibebenta?" kamusta naman ang tanong ni ate diba! suot suot ko pa, pinapabenta na. come on!

pero may mas malala pa kong comment na nakuha dyan. this one naman, from a manong. sabi ni manong after bumili, "ikaw talaga, sales talk kung sales talk! sales lady ka siguro sa SM ano?" at hindi pa nakuntento sa paghirit si kuya. maya maya sabi, " hindi nga yata sa sm eh. tindera ka ata sa nepa q- mart!" at hindi yan nilet go ni kuya hanggang siya'y umalis.

hindi ko alam kung maiinsulto ba ko o mattuwa sa comment ni kuya. tindera naman na ko sa palengke?! oh well. at least that proves something. effective ako sa pagbebenta. hindi ko mahindi an ni kuya. sobrang nilalandi ko na nga sila eh para lang makabenta. haha!

may bago na kong trabaho. TINDERA. ;)

paper galore.

2007-04-19T19:09:00.000+08:00

may reflection paper ako. at di ko pa ginagawa. pasawy. sige, gagawin ko na nga.

*kat, type. type. type.*

sobra.

2007-04-19T19:07:00.000+08:00

namimiss ko na siya. i cant wait for 27.

galit daw siya.

2007-04-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

nagalit siya kagabi sakin. pano ba naman kasi, natulugan ko na naman siya. heheh. aba, malay ko bang makakatulog ako. di ko naman talaga sinasadya. ;)

nagsorry naman na ako. hinintay niya kasi talaga ko magreply bago siya makatulog. e anong oras na rin kasi yun. mga one na rin ata. ayun, nainis tuloy.

tinext ko siya kaninang umaga. sabi ko, "good morning. sorry na. i love you. " at alam mo ba naman kung anong sabi? " good morning. ok na yun, ayaan mo na, wala na rin namang magagawa kasi tapos na. pasok ka na. have a nice day. take care." at kelan pa siya naging ganito kacivil sakin? diba?!

ayun. dun ko nga napagtanto na galit talaga. syempre, ako naman nagsorry ulit tapos di na nangulit.

so fast forward tayo. ng matapos ang klase ko, nagtext ako. sabi ko, "tapos na class ko. kain ka na." at syempre, nagreply naman siya. sabi, " oh, kumain ka na. kain na rin ako maya." aalis daw kasi siya. hahatid nanay niya. nung paalis na, eto ang tinext, "malayo lang talaga. alis na muna ako ah. oi, i love you. kahit na asar ako sayo ng konti lang. mwah!"

e di syempre, ang haba na naman ng buhok ng lola mo. ayun, bati na kami. ;)

kakaibang layout.

2007-04-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

mimi!

salamat ng maraming marami sa bagong layout. super love na talaga kita. kailangan talaga match yung pictures dun sa nakasulat sa header ha? for that! magbibikini ulit ako. haha! thanks talaga.

paksyet.

2007-04-12T09:59:00.000+08:00

paksyet talaga ang CRS. sana magkapigsa sa pwet ang nakaisip na online na ang regular enlistment.

ulan.

2007-04-11T19:49:00.000+08:00

"pumapatak na naman ang ulan sa bubong ng bahay."

di ba dapat summer na? bakit umuulan? yan tuloy. di ako makauwi ng bahay. kawawa naman ako. :(

kasiyahang walang hanggan.

2007-04-11T19:29:00.000+08:00

ang saya maging masaya. hindi ko man aminin, pero mahal ko na talaga siya. ;)

nagkausap kami kagabi. matagal tagal rin. from 1am to 2.30 am rin siguro yun. my gawd. namiss ko siya ha. bigalng nagjump palayo yung heat ko yung narinig ko yung boses niya. nakakatuwa kasi wala pa rin palang nagbago. ganon pa rin. walang kamatayang asaran. walang kamatayang biruan. :) talo siya sakin kagabi. hindi siya pwedeng kumontra, dahil ako boss. ako yung bida. pero kagabi lang. today is another story. haha. :)

antagal niya. hindi pa rin nagtetext ngayon. asa gym kasi. malamang, mamaya pa magpaparamdam yun. uuwi muna siya, kakaimn tapos magtetext na. haha. grabe, kabisado ko na nga daw routine niya. ;) oh well, ganyan talaga. :)

nakakatuwa kasi he knows when to say the right words. parang kanina. sobrang napikon ako sa kanya. nang-aasar na naman kasi. so nagtext ako na tigilan na niya ko. at nagreply naman. sabi: "ui, galit na siya. love you.". ayun, wala na ang galit ng lola mo. kaasar. ;)

ngayon ko lang napansin. bakit lahat ng end the paragraphs sa taas may smiley? hmm. :)

gradweyt.

2007-04-11T18:39:00.001+08:00

ngayon lang nag sink-in sakin.

grabe, gragradweyt na pala talaga sila. kung tutuusin, gradweyt na talaga sila. unti- unti na silang mawawala. isa isa na silang di magpapakita. at isa isa na silang magkakaron ng kani- kaniyang buhay. sa totoo lang, ayaw kong umalis sila. selfish na kung selfish pero hindi ko talaga maimagine na wala sila sa buhay ko. wala sila sa org. wala sila sa UP.

eto ang simpleng pamamaalam at pasasalamat sa mga ate at kuya ko ng dalawang taon sa UP. mahirap mang paniwalaan pero totoong malaki ang itinulong niyo sa akin. my life would not have been this happy without you guys.

kay ate pia. nawala ka man, di kita nakalimutan. salamat sa jumping rope sessions natin. sayang lang di tayo masyadong naging close. gayunpaman, salamat.

kay ate karla. ang dakilang batch head ng 05-A. salamat sa lahat ng tulong. sa lahat ng papuri at sa lahat ng pagkakataong sinamahan mo ko sa problema. di man tayo sobrang naging close, ate pa rin kita.

kay ate dana. sa seksing babaeng mahal na mahal ako. at ganon din ako sa kanya. salamat sa mga payo at sa happy times. tapos mo na ang math mo. galing! may libre pa ko sayo. ;)

kay ate auwie. love kita. salamat sa mga coffee sessions at dvd marathons. salamat sa tulong sa acads at sa buhay- buhay. di ka pa pwede umalis. papatulong pa ko sa 110 and 199 diba? at kape ang kapalit. ;)

kay gene. ang lae passer. never kitang tinawag na ate. ewan ko ba. salamat sa friendship at sa pagtitiwala. sa pagshishare ng kalokohan at mga sad moments. dito lang ako lagi. be good. at alam mo na kung bakit.

kay kuya andy. mango juice, dalawa. CASAA. alam ko di mo na to mababsa pero mamimiss ko to. boyfriend kita diba? pero seriously, im so thankful that i have a kuya like you. nakita at talagang naramdaman ko yun. ingat ka dyan sa PMA. dalawin ka namin sa baguio. ;)

kay ate mau. ang vocalist at comedian, all in one. salamat sa mga tawa at magagandang tugtugan. salamat sa sapatos na pinahiram mo. :) pati na rin sa mga payo about acads, love life at life as a whole. rock on.

kay ate jessa. ang diyosa. salamat sa lahat lahat lahat. ikaw yung isa sa mga natakbuhan ko nung napakarami kong problema. ikaw ang laging nagpapaalala sakin na maganda ko at hindi ko dapat nanghihinayang sa kanila. collect and collect then select ika mo nga. if it weren't for you, nagpapakatanga pa rin ako ngayon. salamat. masaya na ko, nga pala. alam mo na yun. ;)

kay jm. salamat sa pagmamahal. alam mo at alam ko kung anong ibig kong sabihin dun. salamat sa pagpapahalaga. sa suporta. sa pagiintindi. you're one of the most important guys sa org for me. :)

kay ate badet. sobrang mahal kita. you've become a part of me already. ikaw yung super ate ko pagkadating sa lovelife. continue to love. and continue to be loved. madami pa tayong kwentuhan sessions. para sa lahat, salamat.

kay kuya louie. ang spiritual adviser. paerho tayong torn ano? pero rock on. love tayo ni God diba? salamat sa laht ng advices. more to come. good luck sa MA. :)

kay ate gayle. ang aking nanay, ate, and teacher all in one. maraming maraming salamat sa lahat ng words of wisdom, encouragement, at lahat na yata ng words. you've taught me a lot. and i would forever hold on to all of that. training will always be the best. alam ko naman na nandyan ka lang lagi, so no goodbyes! marami pa tayong labas, lakwacha, eat out at overnight stays. kristian is so lucky to have someone like you. feeling ko meant for each other talaga kayo. basta ha, abay ako sa kasal niyo? :) hihintayin ko yan.

kay ate ann. sa kapwa ko bitch. magpaka bitch pa tayo. love na love kita. salamat sa pagtitiwalang binigay mo sakin. minsan ikaw yung big sister ko, minsan ako naman. salit salit lang yan. mahal ka pa niya. totoo yun. pero hindi pa lang siguro ngayon. be happy. because you deserve to be happy. we all do. i'll always be here for you girl. bitch rules! ;)

at higit sa lahat.

kay ate grai. ang babae with a fake smile. the camlover. the bikini hunter. the girl with the most number of eat outs for a sem. the only girl i konw who asks ( sometimes coerces) her friends to write something (pwede ring draw. basta dapat meron.) on the back of every receipt she has (although minsan sa tissue paper, likod ng balot ng french fries, etc. etc.). maraming salamat. salamat sa friendship. sa pag-aalaga. sa pakikinig. sa mga payo. sa pagmamahal. sa biruan. sa ovenight stays. sa long usap sessions. sa lahat lahat. hindi ko makakalimutan lahat yun. hindi ko makakalimutan ang pagpasok at pagtatago mo sa loob ng cabinet ko ng nakakita ka ng ipis sa kwarto ko. hindi ko makakalimutan ang bilis mo sa pagkain ng taho. hindi ko makakalimutan ang mami at champorado sa bahay. hindi ko makaklimutan ang iyakan blues natin sa tapat ng main lib. hindi ko makakalimutan ang dami ng beses na tayo'y lumabas, gumimik, gumala, at nag- enjoy. sa ateneo ka na. bagay ka jan. haha. pero forever dilly ka pa rin. tatak UP eh. wag mong kakalimutan yun. mahal na mahal na mahal kita. and i will always and forver be youe bhebi. nandito lang ako pagkelangan mo ng kaibigan, kakulitan o kahit ano man. 3 words for you. super gurrl rocks. and i mean that.

to UP POLITICA's graduates batch 2007, kudos. goodluck and god bless.

ako na ito.

2007-04-10T19:59:00.000+08:00

thanks mimi!

the best!

2007-04-10T19:47:00.000+08:00

training pa rin!

gwa.

2007-04-10T19:37:00.000+08:00

shet. nagiging gc na naman ako. ano kayang mangyayari sakin this sem? lecheng portuguese. wala pa ring grade na nilalabas. si ma'm talaga. kahit kelan, late.

rantings.

2007-04-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

AYAW KONG UMUWI SAMIN!

AMPONIN NIYO NA LANG MUNA AKO!!

torn.

2007-04-09T19:22:00.000+08:00

gusto ko talaga sumama sa jumpstart/ sendoff/ semplanning ng org pero hindi na ko at ayaw ko rin namang magback out sa nauna kong commitment. once in a blue moon lang kasi yun and sobrang importante sakin yung gabing yun kaya kahit sumabay man yun sa outing, hindi talaga. sana maintindihan nila ko kung ganito man desisyon ko. at sana, mapilit ko sila na imove yung date ng alis to 28 instead of 27 para makasama ko. shet. gagamitin ko na lahat ng powers ko para dun. luluhod pa ko sa harapan nila kung yun gusto nila. gusto ko talagang sumama. pero hindi ko rin kayang igive up yung sa 27.

im torn between two lovers. leche.

ang saya ng buhay, pag kasama kita.

2007-04-09T18:56:00.001+08:00

in love na nga talaga ko.

and guess what? pati pala siya, mahal na ko. :)

ang saya ng ganito ano. kakaiba yung nafefeel ko lately. para kong laging lumulutang. he makes me happy at ganon din naman ako sa kanya. grabe, parang napagusapan na yata namin ang lahat ng bagay tungkol sa isa't isa pero parang di pa kami nauubusan ng mapaguusapan. every day is a reveleation about him. about me. about us.

yes. we've reached the point na sinabi niya, "let's talk about US". technically, wala pa namang us. pero sa situation namin ngayon, ganon na rin eh, wala lang formalities. napagusapan namin, saka na yung formalities. anlayo niya at anlayo ko sa kanya. ang pangit naman kung over the phone at mabubuhay kayo sa text lang right? as for now, masaya na ko sa ganito.

sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam. lalo na yung mga pagkakataon na napaguusapan namin ang tungkol sa isa't isa because little by little, we see how similar and different we are. the good thing lang about all this is pareho kami ng gustong tipo ng relationship. mature and healthy relationship. para kaming ewan diba. nagpaplano kung pano ba dapat. haha.

so far, naging open naman ako sa kanya sa halos lahat ng bagay at ganon din naman siya sa akin. nasabi ko na sa kanya yung matagal ng bumabahala sa akin. yung thought na mahirap palitan (pero sa tingin ko, better word yung tapatan) at higitan yung last na naging girlfriend niya. sabi ko nga sa kanya, to the nth level na kasi sila nun. pero sabi niya: "lam mo yung past ko, kinalimutan ko na. wala na yun. im in something new again. now its up to is on how to make it the best." at syempre, kinilig naman ang lola mo. ;)

dumating na rin kami sa point na napagusapan namin kung anong klaseng girlfriend ba ko. at kung anong klaseng boyfriend siya. yung mga ayaw at gusto ko alam na niya. at ganon rin sa kanya. buti na lang, sa lahat ng mga bagay na nalaman niya, willing siyang magadjust for me. and im willing to do the same for him.

ang galing ano. kung kelan mo hindi hinahanap, tsaka dumadating. nakakabilib kasi kung tutuusin, wala lang naman dapat talaga yung amin. kaso sadyang ganyan ang tadhana (naks!), hindi napigilan ang mga pangyayari. buti na rin ganito nga ang nangyari. :)

totoo. ang saya ng buhay pag kasama ko siya. kasi sobrang napapatawa at napapasaya niya ko. kakaiba talaga. sobrang inaasar niya ko, kinukulit. tawag pa nga sakin kung hindi panget, engot o di naman kaya, suyat. ewan ko ba dun. ganon ata talaga siya. pero pag naglambing na yu. leche. nag haba talaga ng buhok ko.

sana patuloy pang humaba buhok ko ano? at sana, SIYA na nga talaga. :)

lipat kwarto.

2007-04-09T18:51:00.000+08:00

warning:

post of an angry girl

leche talaga ang mga tao sa bahay. kasumpa sumpa silang lahat. kararating mo lang tapos ganyan pa idadakdak sayo! nakakairita! badtrip siya. akala mo kung sino. napakayabang. napakafeeling. feeling niya kanya yung bahay. e hello! hindi naman! napaka arogante niya! pwede naman kasi akong kausapin ng maayos. mahirap ba naman yun?! leche talaga!di ko na siya matagalan! ayaw ko ng umuwi sa bahay!!! pramis!

magsamasama silang mga pangit!

buhay.

2007-04-04T16:53:00.000+08:00

buhay bum na naman ako.

mukha kong palamuning baboy dito. sobrang nakakatamad kasi kumilos. kaya kain, nood, tulog lang ang buhay ko. haha. :)

sobrang dami ko nang kwento. pero next time na lang.

btw, 1 subject lang nakuha ko sa crs. paksyet.

next time ulit. :)

kababaihan.

2007-03-10T19:07:00.001+08:00

MABUHAY KA!

5 signs.

2007-03-10T18:54:00.000+08:00

five signs that you're already falling in like... love?

sign # 1.

napapangiti ka with just the thought of that person. kahit sobrang lungkot mo na, maalala mo lang siya, di mo mapigilang di mapangiti. lalo na pag naaalala niyo ang paglalaro niyo ng BEAM.

sign # 2.

siya na lang lagi ang laman ng panaginip mo. ayaw mo man, di mo naman mapigilan. at ang nakakainis pa, yung scenario sa panaginip mo. kung pwede lang magkatotoo ang panaginip.

sign # 3.

kahit sobrang busy ng schedule mo, you still find time to spend with him. and sobrang worth it ng oras na yun. para kasing tumitigil ang mundo pag magkasama kayo.

sign # 4.

kapag nakikita mo siya, natataranta ka. ninenerbyos. sobrang kumakabog and dibdib mo. sa sobrang nerbyos mo, matatpakan mo ang paa ng partner mo at makaklimutan mo ang steps sa sayaw niyo habang nagpapractical exam.

sign # 5.

kapag "siya" na ang tumutukoy sa salitang "SIYA". kapag tinanong ka ng ibang tao kung sinong kwinekwneto mo, at pangalan niya ang sagot kapag sinabi mo ang salitang siya. halimbawa, sinabi mo sa kaibigan mo : ay, kaklase mo pala siya! at sinagot ka ng kaibigan mo na: hindi, ibang class time siya. at naintindihan mo. hindi ka tumukoy ng kahit anong pangalan. dahil siya na talaga yun.

GUILTY.

ano ba talaga kuya?

2007-03-10T18:49:00.000+08:00

ang hirap talagang intindihin ng mga lalaki. hindi mo maintindihan kung ano ba talaga. pwede naman kasing linawin eh. bakit lagi nalang ginagawang malabo ang lahat.

ayoko kong magassume na kahit na ano. mahirap na. pero ang hirap din namang di magisip kung ano ba talaga diba. nakakatuliro na. lalo na ngayon na pakiramdam ko, nahuhulog na ko.

mali to. mali pero gusto kong gawing tama. sana lang tulungan mo rin ako ano. sana lang mabasa mo to.

ano ba kasi talaga?

grow old with you.

2007-03-10T18:00:00.000+08:00

i wanna make you smile, whenever you're sad
carry you aroung when your arthritis is bad
all i wanna do is grow old with you...

may nakasakay ako sa jeep kahapon ng mga 5.30pm (first time na ganito ko kaaga umuwi!), dalawang matanda. isang babae at isang lalaki. siguro, nasa late 60s na sila. nakaupo sila sa harapan ko. napatitig ako sa kanila. ang sweet. naisip ko tuloy yung kanta ni adam sandler.

i'll get your medicine when your tummy aches

build you a fire if the furnace breaks

oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

habang nakaupo sila dun, magkahawak sila ng kamay. nakakakilig sila. para silang mga bata. nagbubulungan pa. inabot ng lalaki yung bayad nila. sabi, sa may GMA lang daw. malapit lapit na yun. konti nalang, bababa na sila.

i'll miss you

kiss you

give you my coat when you are cold

need you

feed you

even let ya hold the remote control

at yun nga, dumating na rin kami sa bababaan nila. sabi ng babae. "ma, para po." tumigil ang jeep. naunang bumaba yung lalaki. sumunod yung babae. habang pababa ang babae, inalalayan siya ng lalaki. ang gentleman naman. naglakad sila. papunta at ng mrt station. habang tumatawid, nakahawak yung matandang babae sa balikat ng lalaki. hay.

so let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink

put you to bed if you've had too much to drink

i could be the man who grows old with you

i wanna grow old with you

sana makahanap din ako ng ganito ano. ang sarap siguro ng pakiramdam. hihintayin ko ang panahon na kakantahan ako ng kantang to. till then.

antok.

2007-03-06T20:57:00.000+08:00

naaantok na ko.

zzzzzz....

confessions.

2007-03-05T09:48:00.000+08:00

bakit ba? e sa gusto ko nga.

confession # 1.

di ako pumasok sa first subject ko ngayong araw dahil tinatamad ako. yup. hindi ako late or whatsoever kaya di ako pumasok. sadyang tinatamad lang talaga ko pumunta sa NIGS at ibear na pakinggan ang lecture ng prof ko sa natsci na makikita din naman sa module na prinoprovide sa College of Science. Hindi sa magaling na ko kaya di na ko pumapasok. minsan, nakakasawa lang talaga pumasok at magpanggap na nakikinig ka kahit sa totoo naman ay naglalakbay ang isip mo sa kawalan. magpakatotoo na ano. kaya eto ako. pasaway.

confession # 2.

may crush ako sa boyfriend ng kaibigan ko. oo. totoo. crush ko talaga siya. pero happy crush lang naman. hindi naman ako "patay na patay" sa kanya to the point na aagawin ko siya sa kaibigan ko diba? ayaw ko nga. one. di ako sulutera. two. di kami bagay. ang gulo ko ano?

confession # 3.

lagi akong nagsusuka tueing nakikipaginuman. e bakit ba? ayaw ng katawan ko sa alak eh. pinipilit ko lang na tanggapin niya ito. ang makialam, pangit.

confession # 4.

matakaw talaga ko. teka lang, confession pa ba ito?

confession # 5.

nagsinungaling ako sa ex- boyfriend ko dati. sabi ko, may mga tao sa bahay namin kaya di siya pwede pumunta. ang totoo, may mga kaibigan ako at may inuman kaya di siya pwede pumunta. eto pa, tinawagan ako. sabi ko na lang, matutulog na ko. alam ko, bad ako.

confession # 6.

may espesyal na tao sa puso ko ngayon. ayan. sige na. aaminin ko na.

confession # 7.

minsan, sinasabi ko sa mga tao na wala pa ko sa bahay kahit nandun na ko kasi gusto kong magalala sila. ewan ko ba. ang sarap ng feeling ng may nagaalala sayo. haha. weird.

confession # 8.

nafall ako sa isang kaibigan nung pumunta kami sa batad. pero tapos na yun. sabi nga, what happened in batad, stays in batad. para kasing sariling mudo yun eh. hay.

confession # 9.

natulog ako sa bahay ng lalaki recently. tabi kaming natulog. kelan? secret. kanino? secret pa rin. bakit? wala lang. ;)

confession # 10.

walang nangyari. promise. pero may ginawa lang ako. something. pero di bad. promise. basta. happy.

wishes.

2007-03-05T09:18:00.000+08:00

sinong nagsabi na bawal mangarap? dadating ang araw na mukha ko naman ang nasa mga litratong ito. ang ganda diba?

look at me.

starlight. starbright.

makulay ang buhay.

shoes that kill.

sa kawalan.

hello? telephone?

embrace. awwww.

oh yes. my mended heart.

bang bang.

sweet!

shot called butterfly dreams. panalo!

pag ako kinasal, di pwedeng walang ganitong shot!

i want this shot. please. help me! so nice. make me like this. anyone?

happy!

2007-03-04T13:12:00.000+08:00

uber.

tuesday night fever.

2007-02-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

i just cant get enough of tuesdays.

siguro the song miss kita pag tuesdays fits me right now. sobrang may hangover pa ko. iba eh. masaya. kakaibang saya.

antagal na rin kasi since last akong gumimick. kaya siguro ganun na lang yung saya ko last tuesday. not to mention na siya pa yung kasama ko. ok. just to clear things out. walang special thing going on between the both of us... but i would not deny that he's making me happy and that my heart jumps with just the thought of him. hmmm. anon kayang ibig sabihin nun? again, another question id rather keep unanswered. not yet. not now.

~~~

urbandub played. ang saya saya na naman ni vien. pasalamat nga siya, yung table namin nasa pinakaharap. haha. nice diba? ok talaga pag kakilala mo organizers ng event.

~~~

anyway, he asked me out again. kahapon. kaso hindi ako sumama. parang may mali kasi. honestly, gusto ko talagang pumunta kaso may "something" na pumipigil sakin. basta, next time na magyaya siya, go na ko. pero yung kahapon, hindi muna. not yet. not now.

am i happy?

am i in "like"?

2007-02-17T17:35:00.000+08:00

from the first time that i saw him, i already felt something different. i knew he was different. when he texted me that he's waiting for me at the steps, i got excited. and when we got to the place, i felt comfortable. when he asked me if i wanted a jacket and into the car to get one, i felt like a princess. and when he placed the jacket on my shoulders, i felt secured. i knew he would not do anything bad. when he opened the car's door for me, i felt that he really is a gentleman. and when we hanged out after, i felt i knew him a little better. when he dropped me home to our house, i wanted the night not to end. honestly, i was happy- something i have not felt for sometime. i felt like i'm really cared about. yes i know, for a first it's always like that. but its just nice, :)

the next day, i forgot to go down to the place i was really going. i was thinking and smiling too much. i felt like i was in cloud nine.

now, when i saw him again in the same jeep where i was, i was sure this is not normal anymore. especially when he offered his hand to help me get out of the jeep. my heart jumped with joy and my face got a big smile plastered on it.

i can't wait for his text anymore. everytime my phone beeps and i see his name, i smile. i feel happy.

so? am i in like?

too much drama.

2007-02-17T17:24:00.000+08:00

last hirit na ng drama:

*i saw them together kanina. magkasama umalis after econ 100.2 exam. ouch.
salamat jeriel sa company.

*yes. they really went out last tuesday. where? i perfectly don't know. and i would not want to know.

*yes. there is something going on. even jeriel could tell.

*last, yes. he already said goodbye. not really goodbye but something to that effect. better words
were used though.

bitter? a bit. haha.

please.

2007-02-17T17:21:00.000+08:00

no more. please.

ten things i love to hate about you.

2007-02-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

ive told myself exactly four days ago that i will let go. i told myself to stop. stop loving him. and stop caring about him. stop asking questions and stop pretending that i still have some rights over him. stop wondering why. stop asking what really happened and really is up. and definitely, stop getting and letting myself be HURT.

but i guess right now, i just cant stop. i love to feel the pain. i love to see the two of them together and see and feel for myself how hard and how painful it really is. i want to prove my theory that the more that i get hurt, the easier it will be for me to let go- that is, with no hard feelings.

yes, i've already accepted the fact that it's over and that i should let bygones be bygones. i guess i have already taken my first step. at least the first, the hardest step, is done. now, i just have to continue with my steps, this time, without turning back. whatever happened between us are now just memories- memories i get to keep and get to treasure.

there are ten things that i love to hate about him but just can't. probably, these are the ten things that would really remind me about him, things i would want to hate for the same reason but still these ten things are the things i'll surely miss about him. ten things i hope to hate but still love. ten different things. about him. about me. about us.

10. donuts.
my sister used to tease him that he is the "donut guy". why? because everytime he goes to our house and my sister is there, the thing that he brings with him is donuts. i remember us watching SONA in our sala eating the donuts that he bought. ang saya. i also remember that i got mad at him because he kept on telling me that i ate all the donuts and i'm so "matakaw" even if it was really him who ate it all up. hay. so i guess no donuts anymore?

9. last minute back outs.
if i remember it correctly, i had a post where i was really really pissed off because he backed out on our supposed to be date. what was just nice about it is the way he got back. went to the house at 1 am. aw.

8. frat related issues.
kailangan pa bang iexplain? i used to hate it. now i miss it.

7. late night tambays.
i thing i have learned to associate with late night tambays is him. so i guess a little less of that too?

6. hatidan blues.
still related to the tambay is what comes after it. the "hatid". now, i should get used to riding the jeep alone. once again.

5. jumpstart and org events.
i just had so many good and bad memories with org events that im starting to hate it. its just that every event seem to bring back things that happen in the past. less tambay? you wish! so what now? hmm. i guess i just have to go blind, deaf, mute, and numb whenever he's there, with her.

4. text.
he may not be as sweet as others in person but he is a really sweet texter. probably that last thing i'll be able to let go would be his last to text messages saved in my other inbox. yeah.

3. calls.
yes, he calls up too. especially if im not yet home at night. he gets so worried that he starts calling me, my sister and some friends. and yes, i really love him when he does that. hay.

2. hugs and kisses.
no need for words.

1. i love you's.
no more of that. i guess it's more of good bye's and thank you's now.

alive.

2007-02-17T16:18:00.000+08:00

yes. i know. its been how long since i have last updated this blog. and yes, i know, people are telling me that this blog is dead. but hey? look who's back? yup. you got that right. it looks like i'm back. back with a vengeance.

yes. im trying to relive my blog. i do know i need to do a lot of "catching up". many ( and i mean many) have happened already for the past so-so months that i have not written a single journal entry here. let's just say i was busy fixing my life, that's why i was not able to update. but what the heck, my life is still a mess and yet, im already updating? ang gulo ko.

whew. i just don't know where to start. i just can't figure out which things are to be shared and which should not be. but, who reads this blog anyway? i guess i just have to tell all. at least after i've "released" all the things i wanted to tell some people, i'll be better.

here goes nothing.

birthday bash galore.

2006-12-17T21:05:00.000+08:00

happy 18th birthday

JIZELLE!

happy 20th birthday

ATE GRAI!

happier princess.

2006-12-17T20:34:00.000+08:00

and i thought ill never be happy again.

its been a long time since ive last updated my blog about my life. honestly, much have happened to me for the past so- so weeks. too much emotions have been felt. too much tears have been shed. too much laughters have been laughed. indeed, it had been a roller coaster ride. ive experienced too much ups and downs- with a couple of bumps along the way. but it looks like its all worth it. im much happier now. happier princess.

were getting together REALLY well lately. let's just say that we both are much happier, much more contented, and more comfortable in this kind of situation. people might even think that we look more "us" now than before. and i somehow would agree to whoever would say that. he's more sweet, more gentle, more caring. and all of that just makes me a happy princess in her cloud nine.

we just got the chance to spend time together yesterday and this morning. he went to our house after lunch and then we went together to jizelle's party at around six. afterwards, we went to ortigas to have coffee. the night was really perfect. so perfect.

it would really be a happy christmas for the both of us. mamimiss din kita. :)

mahal kong politica.

2006-12-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

purple people.

kelangan nakakandong. haha.

cake galore.

admit it. ang ganda ko. ang ganda namin.

camwhores.

love ko ang org na to!

haggard kat.

2006-12-06T21:29:00.000+08:00

dami ginagawa!!!!

frustrated.

2006-12-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

sana hindi mo na lang ako pinaasa.

nakakabadtrip lang talaga. i know it was not YOUR fault kaso hindi ko lang talaga mapigilan na hindi mabadtrip. let's just say na umasa lang talaga ko. gaga naman kasi ako, masyadong umasa. ngayon tuloy, naiiyak na ko habang nasa harapan ng computer sa isang computer shop dito sa philcoa dahil lang sa text na nareceive ko na galing sayo. sabi ko na nga ba. kung sa kanila nga lang rin, pagpapalit mo talaga. hands down. walang kalaban laban. pero oo nga, sino ba naman ako para umangal diba? ang kapal naman ng mukha ko pag nagkataon. wala lang naman ako. nakakaasar ka talaga kat. ikaw kasi. umuwi ka na nga. to an empty house. MAG- ISA ka na naman.

crap.

2006-11-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

my life is a mess.

full of crap.

heartbroken.

2006-11-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

its over.

crying my heart out.

2006-11-16T18:29:00.000+08:00

it is so hard to pretend that you are ok even if you're perfectly not. its so hard to look into the person's eye and pretend that everything's ok. it is just so damn hard to smile even if what you want to do is cry. it is so hard to feel bitter yet you know that this is for the good. it is so damn freaking hard to accept that not all things are meant to last. and probably that is just what happened.

one month. one month to think things over. one month to fix ourselves. one month to try to fix things up. one month to patch up our differences. one month to look if things can still get back to the way they use to be. one month. one long month. one freaking long hard month. too long. too hard. too much.

i dont know what to feel anymore. i dont know how to act if he's there. its too awkward. too weird. too much for me. everytime i see him, i feel like my heart just breaks into two. it just pains me so much that our love for each other is not enough to keep our relationship going. indeed it is true. love DOES NOT and CANNOT conquer all.

probably we are just too different from one another. the things that i love are the things that he hates. and the things that he hates are the things that i perfectly love. we are too much on the opposite sides and although i try so hard to cross that bridge of differences, i seem to just cant cross. i keep failing. i keep on falling.

to love him dearly means so much to me. and now that things are falling apart, i feel like im coming with it. it is so hard not to think about what will happen next. after that month, what now? will things be better? will things get worse? honestly, i dont know. and a part of me just dont want to know.

honestly, im afraid. im so afraid that we'll get used to the feeling that we will come to a point that we'll just decide that we're better off as friends. im scared that within that period of time, one of us will realize that things would not work out anymore. im scared. afraid. and its haunting me even in my sleep.

ive cried my heart out last night. too much tears have been shed and im still not ok. definitely not. and i think it will get even worse tonight as i go home and worst on saturday, the day we usually spend constantly together.

there are rules. and i have to follow them. love has no rules. but i guess this is and exemption.

no talks.

no hons.

no sweet texts.

no house visits.

no holding hands.

no hugs.

no kisses.

no i love you's.

no nothing.

but i just hope there's still one more no.

no GOOD BYES.

second sem. new start.

2006-11-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

second sem na naman! and yes, im now officially enrolled! yey! 48 years in the making at yun... ok naman ang subjects for the sem.. though feeling ko mamamatay ako dun sa iba kong nakuha. i have no idea dun sa iba eh. haller?! portuguese? around the world ata ko sa foreign language. haha.:) pero happy na rin. nakakuha ko ng pe. :) social dance. yeah!!

~~~

promise ko di na ko iinom ng gin straw buong buhay ko. ayaw ko ng maulit yung nangyari sa drew's last tuesday. pamatay. feeling ko naisuka ko pati kaluluwa ko. kaya kayo, dont make gaya. haha.:)

~~~

bad shot ako sa bahay ngayon. i wonder. pasaway kasi ako. sobra.

~~~

JUMPSTART! sobrang saya. as in super hanep mega todo to the max. walang tatalo. daming nangyari. at take note, di ako nalasing. ;) andami ring food. bonding sessions at joke time. basta. sulit. sa uulitin!:)

sembreak.

2006-11-04T18:00:00.000+08:00

2 days na lang.

sa wakas.

matatapos na.

see you. :)

first sem fun.

2006-11-04T17:48:00.000+08:00

after a million years of waiting, crs is a-ok once again. finally!

looks like my first sem sa alright after all. well, except for the freaking cwts1 (i am so sure that i got inc because they lost my journal. gosh!), all my courses/ subject grades seems to be doing great. hope that this stroke of luck will continue till next sem...

consistent pa rin. thank God.

punyeta!!!

2006-10-25T17:27:00.000+08:00

tang ina!!! incomplete ako sa cwts?! putcha!

new look. new sem.

2006-10-22T19:50:00.000+08:00

so it looks like the sem is really over. now, another sem is about to come. and since its a whole new sem, princess katkat got a whole new look for everyone. who's up for a surprise?

~~~

im now here at the province enjoying nature and its life. goodbye techie world for a while.

~~~

i hate the crs. how come nobody told me that the secong cut is over? now i still need 9 units. fingers crossed that ill get all those remaining subjects by the third cut. and that's on the 25th. maybe i should start my novena right now. ;)

~~~

i miss kevin already.

moi jumelle.

2006-10-22T19:47:00.000+08:00

i miss you twin brother! kasi naman, ang galing... nawala ang phone. haha.

niki noks debut.

2006-10-22T19:42:00.000+08:00

someone told me i should get a mutiply site already. i do think i should get one too. haha. too much pics for a blog right?

from batad. finally!

2006-10-22T19:35:00.000+08:00

dahil matagal bago naupload ang pics, eto ang other half ng aking batad adventure. i cant get over batad! yeah!

pictures.

2006-10-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

sabi nga nila, a picture is worth a thousand words. so, ilang thousands kaya ito? enjoy! a million thanks to gia and her multiply site. you are the best. haha.

kababawan.

2006-10-14T21:09:00.000+08:00

alam ko. mababaw na naman ako. pero ganon talaga eh. shallow minded. mababaw.

i got mad at him again. i know i sounded silly to my friends and probably, if you also heard my story, you'll think that im so shallow to get mad at him just because of that. but i do think it's not something to laugh about. yes, its just a small thing. but honesty is something i cherish. its something important to me. its all im asking. honesty.

and yes, another thing. please dont make me feel that i am nopt important. i know that you're just not showy and all that but sometimes, you have to show me that you care. show me that you love me. wag naman sana na pag may ibang tao, parang wala na ko. that i dont exist. coz whenever you do that, you know what i feel? i feel like youre not proud of me. na kinahihiya mo ko.

ang lungkot na naman.

nocturnal.

2006-10-14T20:57:00.000+08:00

ive turned into a nocturnal. seriously.

ive been sleeping like there's no tomorrow for the last 24 hours. nagbabawi talaga ko ng tulog. imagine, i haven't slept properly for the past week. pano naman kasi, balak akong patayin ng UP.

since monday pa lang, haggard haggard na ko. san ka pa diba? start of the week, patayan na ang drama. two exams and a role play. and add up a silly fight with someone. what do i get? a major headache. and the headache continues. tuesaday, one oral exam. wednesday, final exam and a term paper. thursday, another term paper. and to add something on top, for friday, a freaking long long final exam. ang get this. it ain't over yet.

for next week, i still have 2 exams, a paper and a learning log to pass. sembreak? meron ba? uso ba yun?

***

i really need a time off. a time to relax and have fun. bigyan niyo naman ako.

***

maiba tayo, niyaya ko ni kev na pumunta sa kanila sa bicol. uy. kilig. :) kaso, di naman ako pwede. kasi nga, may lecheng finals pa ko at kailangan ko ring umuwi ng pangasinan dahil mukhang papatayin na ko ng mga magulang ko. sayang. next time nalang. promise.

finals week.

2006-10-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

bakit pa kasi naimbento and exams, papers at finals? kung sino man ang nakapagisip niyan, mamatay ka na!!!

***

sa dalawang taon (well, ongoing pa ang second year...) ko sa UP, ngayon lang ako nakaranas ng ganito. sabay sabay na finals, napakaraming papers at get this, iisa pa ang date ng deadlines. san ka pa diba? hindi lang isa ang hell week ko. dalawa. grabe. patayin niyo na lang ako.

***

kakacheck ko lang ng CRS. sinusumpa na talaga kita!!! 9 units lang ang nakuha ko!!! wala pa yung econ. may galit ka ba sakin? sabihin mo lang. wag na wag magpapakita sakin yung icharge sa CRS talaga. uumbagan ko.

***

bakit ako naiwanan magisa sa bahay? ayaw kong magisa. one, nakakatakot. two, nakakbagot. three, nakakaantok magisa. at four, nakaklugkot. kakanta na lang ako ng, "im lying alone, with my head on the phone..." baka sakalikng dumating sa dennis trillo.

barkadang kakaiba.

2006-10-07T16:45:00.000+08:00

words are not enough to explain how happy i am that i met this guys. one thing is for sure. this is the best.

kamustahan.

2006-10-07T16:30:00.000+08:00

ilang araw na kong nagmamatu.

ilang weng-weng ang nainom. ilang red horse and natoma. ilang suka ang nakita. ilang lasing ang nakasama. kamusta naman ang atay ko diba?

sobrang saya ng mga araw basta inuman sessions. bonding talaga with the people whom i realized have been very very close to me lately. ang saya niyong kasama. iba kayo. lakas tama.

though i maybe a bit drunk nung monday ( sabi nga ni jizelle, may amats), i distinctly remember all the events that happened that night. from the slips of the tongue, to the fights, to the "suka" moment and most especially, "the promise" made.

i stand by your word. and i will keep that promise. rest assured, you will not hear anything from me about that. one thing: THANK YOU. thank you for the things you have said. thank you for treating me as your friend. and thank you for the respect that you have shown. one of a kind.

sa uulitin. more to come.

wallflower. naiinis na wallflower.

2006-10-07T16:02:00.000+08:00

para akong wallflower. kung hindi man, para kong istatwa sa tabi. dinadaandaan. hindi pinapansin. hoy. tao ako no. hindi pader. hindi dingding. hindi istatwa.

sino ba namang hindi maiinis diba? parang hindi mo ko kilala. wala kang pakialam. di ka namamansin. buit sana kung ako lang ang nakakahalata. pero hindi, pati iba, nagtatanong na. at ako naman, wala ring sagot na maibigay sa kanila. dahil kahit ako, nagtataka. nagtatanong.

alam ko lahat tayo busy. shet, ako nga, ilang exams at papers pa ang dapat ipasa. pero sa tingin ko, i DONT deserve that kind of attitude. naiintindihan ko na pagod ka. pero ganon din ako. punong- puno pa.

nakakapikon lang talaga yung nangyari. sasabihin mo sakin na nagmamadali ka. na marami ka pang gagawin. ok lang sana eh. kaso ang nakakapikon at nakakapang init ng ulo e yung makita kitang nakatambay samantalang sabi mo, aalis ka na, nagmamadali ka. nagmamadali pala ha.

tapos maririnig ko pa sayong dahilan, " e bakit ba?" bakit nga ba?

tumawag ka nga. nagalit naman.

ang gulo ng mundo ko ngayon. tulungan niyo kong ayusin.

im seeck.

2006-10-07T15:41:00.000+08:00

ive been sick for the past 5 or so days.

and im still sick. argh.

i need to be well on monday. and that is like two days form now. i need to be well enough to speak properly and audibly. i need some cure. and i need it now. need it badly. shit.

cures anyone?

milenyo hits me... meenila!

2006-10-01T11:31:00.000+08:00

headline: milenyo hits manila!

wala lang. share ko lang. as if hindi niyo pa alam. sheesh.

high school memories.

2006-10-01T10:54:00.000+08:00

after months (others were after years!) of not seeing each other, me and my high school friends, classmates and barkada meet again. at first, i was really nervous, thinking that they probably have changed already (judging from the fact that it had been so long since ive last spent time with them) but they haven't changed a bit! ( oh well, they probably have changrd... in terms of how they look i mean. ^_^) they still acted and speaked like the way they used to. they still had the same expressions and jokes. they still teased me the way they do in high school. yes, they have grown up but a part of them still used to be the boys and girls that we used to be.yes, we all have new lives, new set of friends, and new outlooks in life but once that we get back together, all of those things suddenly slips away and we all feel like we all have not changed- were just like how we used to be. and to tell you honestly, i just love that feeling.

thanks to niki and her debut that we finally got to gather again. by the way, her debut was AWESOME!!! i love everything about it. haha. :p going back, after the debut, we planned on going to the bar which was just in front of the debut's venue. but since its a saturday, as expected the bar was full. and judgind from the line outside, we probably would not get a table of any kind. note: there were 15 of us! imagine how long the table should be! so, what i did was to offer our house (which was just a few bblock away!) and told them that we continue the party (translation: drinking session) at our house. so what happens next? you're to judge!

basta ang alam ko, i had a LOT of fun!!!

i miss you guys. sa uulitin. :)

tanong. sagot.

2006-09-21T19:51:00.000+08:00

may tanong ako. at hindi ko alam ung anong sagot. ang probema, hindi ko pwedeng sabihin yung tanong. so pano masasagot? tsk. tsk. problema nga. may tanong. walang sagot. pasaway.

at long last.

2006-09-21T19:18:00.000+08:00

him: galit ka ba?
me: hindi noh.
him: nagtatampo ka ba?
me: hindi noh.
him: e bakit ganyan ka?
me: wala lang.
him: nagseselos ka ba sa ----?
me: hindi. wala rin lang namang magagawa yun eh. TALO naman ako dun.

at long last. nasabi ko na rin. and mukha namang natauhan na siya. pero diba, totoo naman. talo naman talaga ko dun. wala akong kalaban laban. hands down- panalo yung ____ na yun over me. oo nga naman. nauna yun. nahuli ako ng dating. ano nga namang magagawa ko diba? buti na lang, nasabi k na rin yung matagal ko ng gustong saibhin tungkol dun. and it looks like, he understands. sana ok na lahat. ^_^

*****

as much as possible, ayoko sanang pati ako madamay sa mga issues niya dun sa ibang people... pero mukhang hindi talaga maiiwasan na pati ako mainvolve... oh well...

*****

acads seems to be doing well. sana tuloy tuoy nang maganda ang results.. i so love Psych 101... shift na kaya ko sa psych? whatcha think?

*****

wala na kong pera. isa na kong pulubi. help. i need money.

*****

mag mcdo kaya ako? wag na. maglalandi na naman ako. tame down at. tame down. meow.... rar. ;)

*****

wag niyo kong pansinin. sadyang papansin lang ako ngayon. as in sobra.

next time.

2006-09-16T19:37:00.000+08:00

i love my geog173 group.

uber fun.

sa uulitin!

effort.

2006-09-16T19:35:00.000+08:00

bilib rin ako kay effort ha. nag eefort na talaga. bumabawi. haha. <3

bursting from within.

2006-09-16T19:28:00.000+08:00

masama ang loob ko.

hindi lang actually ako. pati ang mga kapwa ko trainees. we've organized the fun run on our own. we just asked for their cooperation and support by coming to the event and what do we get? nothing.

i just can help but get dissappointed on how things turned out. i thought they will be there to support us- to support the event, which also carries the name of the organization, but what happened? aside from the 6 trainees, only 3 others came, and another one who helped us before the event.

hay. ang hirap talaga pag ganito.

anyway, thanks to ate gayle, alex and kevin for coming and participating. it meant a LOT.

and thanks to ate grai for helping us distribute flyers and posting ribbons. again, it meant a LOT.

by the way, for the people who wanted to know, the vent was successful. VERY successful.

shock value.

2006-09-16T19:05:00.000+08:00

shocking it is. it was a very nice play. very interesting characters. very interesting plot. very interesting story. it was super funny. sulit ang bayad.

the only bad thing was, the number of tickets they sold was not equal to the number of seats available. hence, people were either standing or people were sitting at the stairs. hassle diba? to think that we all paid the same price!

after seeing the play, i suddenly felt the urge for acting again. well, as they say, passion is passion.

and i guess my passion is indeed ACTING.

ROLES anyone?

funny.

2006-09-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

maybe i really should visit peyups.com more often. it can be a good laugh. although some are just so nerve- wrecking! imbento talaga.

jumelle.

2006-09-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

wouldnt it be nice if i really had a twin brother?

oh well. it would be fun. :)

nostalgic.

2006-09-03T20:45:00.000+08:00

i just came home from taft where i went to my best friend's house for her birthday celebration.

i have a report due tomorrow.

i have a major exam in Psych101 tomorrow too.

and i have to go to Congress, still, tomorrow.

so what am i doing here in the computer shop updating my blog? oh. tell me. honestly, i REALLY also dont know why.

ever had the feeling that there is omsthing on your mind and you would not be able to do anything productive if you would not be able to take it off, either by telling it to someone or just by writing it down? well, i practically am feeling that right now. i feel that if i wouldnt put all my thoughts in writing, i would not be able to review well once i get home. and that would NOT be good. so i guess i just have to be pasaway today huh?

how am i feeling today? NOSTALGIC. after seeing my high school friends again (although there were just a few of us, 6 to be exact), and after laughing and bonding with them, i cant just help myself feeling dramatic and emo about all of it. i feel like reminiscing the past and remembering how good it felt to just spend time with those people that probably knows me from head to toe- from my good attributes down to my deepest darkest secrets. Seeing them again and spending time with them is just really incomparable. althought we all rarely see each other, once we get together, i feel like as if the long periods that we've spent apart ( not to mention apart and with other people) just fade away. i feel like everytime we are together, we go back to the younger years- the years when all we care about was our high school crushes and the same bags that we had or the clothes we'll wear the next time we can wear civilian clothes. awww. i just misss those times.

while we were eating dinner and laughing along Ralph's crazy antics or Ivan's simple hirits, i cant help but recall all those others who were not there at that moment. i knew that it would have been a lot more fun if we were complete. aww. i miss you guys.

i know that we all grew up and continue on growing up and probably, we are all a lot different from how we used to be, but wouldn't it be a lot fun hanging out once again just like the old times? i wish we could do that more often. meet up. have fun. get wild. be ourselves.

so when will the next time be? i just hope it would be soon.

love you guys. you're just incomparable.

confused.

2006-08-26T20:57:00.000+08:00

im confused.

i dont know what to feel.

i know this is all wrong.

and im really pissed off.

i should not feel this way.

not now.

not ever.

NO. NO. NO.

we do it the BATAD way.

2006-08-26T20:36:00.000+08:00

normal people probably would not get a fuss over pictures of a field trip. and they probably would not waste their tiime on posting it on their blogs. and they probably would not keep on repeating how much fun they had and how much she misses the whole experience.

so technically, i am NOT a normal person. oh well. at least im enjoying. have fun!

right in the middle of the falls. but hey, im not looking

at the camera! bummer.

bangag na kami.

gin tubig? gin kilig?

basang basa sa ulan?

nah. basang basa dahil sa Tappia Falls!

oh look! there's my twin bro.

top view from simon's inn. ayaw kong magpose.

sobra. hindi ako ready.

stepping out of reality.

2006-08-26T19:37:00.000+08:00

i stepped out of reality. for three days, i had my own world. a world outside the usual world. a world i had shared with people who were practically strangers at first. people who i never thought, would i share the best moments of my life with.

BATAD was really an experience of a lifetime. the whole trip was really great. the long hours of walking, the near death experiences, the slips and falls, the bruises, the aching muscles, the insect bites, the mountain trekking- it was all worth it. i felt FREE. i felt like as if i was someone else, different from who i am now. quoting from vien, it was "pure, unadulterated fun".

somehow, i have forgotten of my real world while i was there. Three days of no signal, no cellphone, no communication from the outside world. all i had was vien, mark, and a lot other people who were strangers at the beginnning- ending up to be the best pals one can have.

i just cant explain the feelings that i had with me during that short period of time. it was UNEXPLAINABLE. all i know is that i will linger on those memories forever. what happens there, stays there. as simple as that. memories, just memories.

what the heck. im really feeling nostalgic about all the Batad experience. i just cant get over it.

hyper. giddy. hyper.

2006-08-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

grabe. ang taas pa rin ng energy ko. kahit sobrang pagod na ko and sobrang sakit ng mata dahil sa paggawa ng lecheng group report namin (camonst, group report ha!), hyper pa rin ako! bring it on!!! kaya ko kayong lahat! readings, reports, exams! wag niyo na kong patulugin, sige! bahala kayo! pag ako nagmukhang zombie bukas, bahala kayo ha! kayo rin ang matatakot! bwahahaha!!!!

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ganito pala ang nagagawa sakin ng sobrang pagod at sakit ng mata. naloloka ako. para na tuloy akong baliw. * sabay sabay: sinong dakila? sino and tunay na BALIW???? *

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kamusta naman si kevin? tinulugan na naman ako. oh well. pagod na rin naman siya. di bale, gigisingin naman niya ako bukas eh. haha.

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meron pa akong isang group report na hindi pa nagagawa. at parang wala akong balak gawin no? wag ka! gagawin ko yan pagkauwi ko! kaya ko to! basta isa isa lang. hehe. ;)

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magjojog pa ba ako bukas? kaya ko pa ba? baka naman kasi pag nagjog pa ko, kinabukasan, sa East Avenue na ko pupulutin. oh well. kaya ko to. para sayo batad ang laban na to! sheesh. ang corny.

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alam niyo ba kung magkano nagastos ko ngayon para sa lecheng report ( inuulit ko: lecheng report!!!) na to? tumataginting na P 90!!! ang mahal!!!

wala na. time ko na.

pasaway.

2006-08-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

dapat gumagawa ako ng report ngayon. pero anong ginagawa ko? naguupdate ng blog. pasaway. kat. mag-aral ka. mag- aral.

weddings made in heaven. part 2.

2006-08-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

ang gwapo ni Wesley!!!

the princess with Rich Alvarez.

after seven years, kinasal din! best

wishes Kuya Rico and Ate Bing!

cute cousins.

ang bango ng roses!

feeling debutantes? haha.

* ayoko naman ng pictures. haha. this wedding was really made in heaven. :) *

weddings made in heaven. part 1.

2006-08-12T15:43:00.000+08:00

princess with princess cousins.

villanueva clan.

we're having fun!

it's lordy tugade with the princess!

look- like cousins? nah. but we're both ____________.

haha.

girls just wanna have fun!

me and the most beautiful mom in the world.

we come in all shapes, heights and sizes.

cousin buddies!

picture taking dunring the ceremony! pasaway!

* here are the long overdued pictures from my cousin's wedding. super fun! *

snapshots.

2006-08-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

politikikays.

cute and cuddly.

wala lang. pictures lang ng apps party sa na ginawa sa bahay namin. ang saya diba? sayang sana kasama rin kayo. haha. sana lang malinis yung bahay pagkatapos. haha.

blast from the past.

2006-08-08T18:56:00.000+08:00

im back. after two weeks or so of isolation from the internet ( oh well, not really the INTERNET but only bolgging.. haha. ) the princess is back once again to share her memoirs. oh yes. im back. and im back for jolly jolly good.

ive been very, and i mean VERY, with this and that for the past weeks. acads, org, stuffs. they have occupied my weeks that i was not able to make time in updating my blog. oh well. who cares? im back anyway. haha.

so how have i been? well, good. hmm. let me say that again. GREAT. im feeling great. acads are doing fine. org is doing ok. friends ( i havent spend so much time with ALL *ehem. ate grai. jiji. ehem* of them lately) are alright. family- i miss them but they are good! and lovelife? happy. so what seems to be the problem? hmm. probably me. oh well. ME.

there are so many things that have been bothering me lately. its not about all of them ( although it may involve some of them) but basically, it is I who got a problem. things seem to irritate me more and more though they shouldnt be. oh well. wag niyo na lang akong pansinin.

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question lang. am i asking too much from him? ok. ill be honest. i have been bothered lately because of him. i feel like im asking too much that he already is having a hard time with me. and i wouldnt want that to happen. so? you think im asking too much? you think im already being a burden? i know that he's just also busy for these past few days. but... oh well. i guess im just not that understanding enough.

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we celebrated our first month together last saturday. well, we did not really celebrate because he was busy with some things. but that's ok. ok lang. im still happy. one month. and still counting. * hope na forever counting... *

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bummer. i am STILL NOT able to upload the pics. i hate firefox. rar.

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nood ayo ng SUKOB next week. sama ka! :)

on blog leave.

2006-07-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

busy. busy. busy.